Neko

This a personal blog dedicated to Me, Myself and I. Eve!

Feel free to check out my about me if you wanna learn more about me.

11/13/24

It's been a bit. Things are still hard, but I'm still alive. I decided to come back and continue work on this project, I'm not going to remove the previous entries where i had a breakdown. I feel like it's important to document my process of getting better. In the meantime, I'm 24 now! my birthday was 2 months and 1 day away, but better late then never right? Expect some new updates in the coming days, let's hope this sticks.

7/13/24

why are you even still here?

7/10/24

sorry

7/1/2024

New Dream: Exploring an abandoned building, it was a large circular building made of concrete, almost like a stadium. I'm in an upper area, going through backrooms, opening doors just to see what was left behind. I think there's people with me, but I don't interact with them. A spider web gets stick to my face, and I see a large spider-like creature moving towards my face. I know it's venomous, and I start panicking. I try to get the web off of me,but no matter how hard I try it doesn't work, It jumps at my face. I woke up as it presumably bites me.

6/30/24

Running low on meds, nightmares are coming back, need to stay focused. can't let it come back

6/24/24

had a dream where I had a child Panicking I don't know what to do. Asking for help but nobody gives me any. The people I love laugh me off and ignore me. Things have been odd lately.

6/20/2024

Hey! Long time no see! Sorry for the lack of updates, I've been busy helping with moving apartments and had to take a brief hiatus, but I'm back now! Updates should be more frequent now. Speaking of which, I added a Guestbook, if you want to just sign your name or leave a comments that's the place to do it! No dreams for today, I've stayed up all night to work on this

6/4/2024

Another Dream: I was at my dad's house, it was almost an alternate universe. He was much different, happier, he was cleaned up and nicer to me. I was happier and healthier. I sit in my bed then get bit by a black widow on my wrist. My arm starts rotting in front of my very eyes as I start panicking. It gets dark and I'm left alone. I never noticed how often I have bad dreams until now, maybe I should just give up and stop logging them, maybe i should just delete this site and move on. I added some stuff to the games tab under the media site.

6/1/2024

Another Dream: At my grandma's house again, hear something outside. There's a fox attacking a cat, the cat is on a large stump and the fox is trying to attack them. I have a katana and I hit the fox with the scabbard. It charges at me and I cut it's head off. I get bitten. Taking a closer look, it's clearly rabid. I go to clean the wound and prepare to go to a doctor. Updated the site some more, started the videos page, needs to be worked on more, but it's a start. Worked more on the Media tab. Removed music player for causing too many issues

5/31/2024

Been a bit since I've worked on this website, haven't been feeling too good. I think I'm having another depressive episode. I'll keep working on this when i can. I updated the Media Tab, I realized how much of a piece of shit gamer I am (lmao). I'll keep working on the site. Had another weird dream, I was alone in an infinite dark void, but then i saw a faint purple light. I wonder if this is related to the trazadone.

5/25/2024

Had another weird dream, I was walking through the woods, and I came across a shack, I heard someone beckoning me over, and I entered. There was no-one inside, but there was a table, and a piece of paper, I turned around and I saw an endless abyss behind me. I heard someone say "Perhaps this is hell." I don't remember much else, I'm glad I stared journaling my dreams, they have can give some good inspiration. No site updates today, I need to clean up the apartment

5/24/2024

Added a music player, character board, and an about me. I had a strange dream last night, I can't remember much. I just heard someone crying for help in a dark void. I hope the trazadone will unfuck my sleep schedule, but I need to keep working on this as well as a video project for ------- -----. I'll probably smoke up after I get off work, for now I'll just log my progress on the site.

5/23/2024

I began work on this website as a sort of digital journal, it also gives me a place to hold all of my projects. It also should give me a sort of a way to track my mental health and cope with my depression. Hopefully this website can help me when I finally get to college, but I'll ramble on more when I finish making the site itself.